Emotions Over You

Did I completely get removed from your mind?
Do you not care anymore about me and our love?
Did I get tossed to the side,
to make room for someone more loved?

What I did to lose you,
I will not know.
Your life was always a mystery,
but that jsut goes to show.

That I didn't love you right,
that I am indeed horrible and wrong.
You were the shed of light,
in my imperfect life and day you throng.

I knew that once I trusted you,
you'd leave me to wither and die.
Just like a rose that lost it's hue,
I crumble in on myself and try to cry.

But my tears are dry,
my heart all numb.
No matter how hard I try,
nothing will ever come.

Good thing other people,
are willing to love me.
Without them to keep me un-crippled,
forever my heart would bleed.

I don't know what to feel,
I just want to talk and be with you.
Your the only one I've loved for so long,
your love is like a sheild.

From the person on the inside,
you do cover.
No one can see from the outside,
the horrible monster.

I am the evil little ugly girl,
everyone used to seek.
Just so everyone can pick,
on their favorite piece of meat.

Am I so wrong for wanting to kill myself?
That inside this fat and bone,
is a fragile girl,
whose's feelings get hurt easily.

I've known you long enough,
to know you know this as well.
So why is it that I have to hang tough,
when inside I'm starting to swell.

With this over-powering emotion,
of uch sadness and lonliness.
Why can't we bothbe happy,
just for once.

Are you really "okay",
like you say you are?
Or are you just saving me,
from a long-story-short...?